"I don't deserve to be this happy."

I feel lighter.
The world weighs its heavy but
I feel
lighter.

Today I strolled
down the sidewalk
with a fine beaned brew
(How pretentious)
but -
the sunlight man,
THE SUNLIGHT,
it found me and
it left me warm,
content,
and healthier than I've felt in
years.

Lunch with Sasha,
a conversation with a shopkeep
about the demise of small town USA,
seductive barristess with ironic glasses
and auburn hair that falls in waves,
a pleasant Saturday afternoon,
I hold them close
and begin to see
a future -

Devoid of death
and the stench of rot
with a hopeful heart
and an honest,
albeit tentative,
rumour of
a smile.


Give me moments.