You know,
I always thought that addiction
would be much more profound
than this.

But it isn't.

It is trivial and profane.
It is self-deluding and
you don't really have it together
regardless of how often that you claim,
"Well,
this is the last time."

I always thought that this slavery
to late night clandestine meetings
was somehow prophetic and
the tattoo
of the starving and struggling
artist.

If the former is true then
call me:
Van
Gogh.